This is written in response to the second response I’ve had from the Ministry of Justice about the reason for the continued criminalisation of assisted suicide and the justification (or lack thereof) for the government’s cruelty.
The MoJ basically said they don’t care about me or what I suffer or what I have to say. This is something I see often. The excuse they make for their cruelty and the criminal cruelty of the government is that they do it because they care.
If they could care then the priority would be the legalisation of assisted suicide because of what it is: a humane act. If they cared then in the few years since the government voted for the continued criminalisation of assisted suicide then they’d have come up with the necessary safeguards they need to make assisted suicide legal. There are tens if not hundreds of thousands of people who work in the government, the civil service, the Ministry of Justice and other organisations. Obviously there are more important things for all those people who can’t care about suicidal individuals and our suffering.
They’ve demonstrated that my words mean nothing to them so I’ve written this blog in response. Unfortunately it’s not as good as the other things I’ve written. The best of my work is in these documents. I have written a better blog before this one and this is the best page to start reading from. But I believe that this post in particular is worth reading.
I’ve tried to focus this blog on the issues of justice as well as compassion. I’m writing about suicide as a rational and natural act so I’m writing against medical lies. I hope it’s enough. This blog I’ve written with the purpose of persuading the justice system and the government not only to legalise assisted suicide but also to revolutionise the suicide system and how they think about suicide.
Can I ask something from you? Reap from the whirlwind. Let me explain below.
Reap from the whirlwind is a phrase I’ve corrupted from “reap the whirlwind” but my meaning is different from the meaning of reap the whirlwind.
What you’re about to read is the product of my mind, my thoughts and my feelings. It is the whirlwind. I reap from this whirlwind all the time in what I write to you.
Perhaps that’s why I have utterly failed to make you care about my suffering just enough to kill me? Now I ask you for something….folly upon folly….which is to reap from the whirlwind.
Understand what I’m saying. Understand my message.
I need to die. But you want me to stay suicidal. There’s something wrong with you.
The key is recognising the nature and severity of suicidal suffering. Unfortunately this goes unrecognised. So I have to fight for my death.
Let me try once more to explain suffering to you, the heartless. I hope I don’t have do it again. Is enough enough now?
But as you’ve demonstrated so many times my suffering is never enough for you. So I have fight for my death.
Thankfully I have a lot to say. I think about suicide every day and I write about suicide almost every single day of this wretched existence. I also spend a lot of time hating you, the monsters who call themselves the human race, but obviously my hatred is of as little importance to you as my suffering (except, of course, for you to make it worse). Unfortunately I’ve written this on my own so it may not communicate clearly the message to you as clearly as it is clear in my mind.
I’ve tried to tailor what I’ve written here to what matters to the justice system. I mean a humane justice system. Obviously I’m not talking about what exists now. (Obviously it’s the easiest job in the world to come up with something better than what the monsters who call themselves the human race believe in doing to a suicidal individual. All because you’re evil.)
I want this page to be a summary of what I’ve written but it’s hard to summarise so much thought and feeling.
If I have to sum up in a few words then here’s some.
Your suicide laws don’t do a damn thing about the possibility of unlimited suffering and protecting everyone from unlimited suffering. In fact they do the opposite by criminalising assisted suicide. For all this to be possible you must be monsters and you are too evil to be able to care.
This might seem like a baseless accusation and if so then please read on. One of the points I make in this blog is about how you don’t recognise the bare cruelty you do to suicidal individuals. One of these cruelties is that you force suicidal individuals to live and languish in suicidal feelings because you don’t understand pain and you’re too evil to be able to care.
If you can’t understand pain then you’ll never be able to do the right thing and you’ll never be able to genuinely care. If you can recognise the bare and blatant cruelty inherent in forcing a suicidal individual to live then you’d understand that you can’t leave anyone to languish in suicidal feelings (unless the individual chooses to).
To leave someone to languish in suicidal feelings should be too much for you to bear but you’re too evil to be able to care. That’s why assisted suicide is so important but also so is a radically improved response to helping individuals stop being suicidal so no one is ever left to languish in suicidal feelings. “Get used to it” can never be a response to suicidal feelings (unless that’s what the individual wants) but get used to it is a response to suicidal feelings which is acceptable to you. Because you’re too evil to be able to care.
It takes no intelligence to realise that there are things that are worse than death but you’re too evil to be able to care about this truth. That’s why it’s of no consequence to you to leave a suicidal to languish in suicidal feelings. All you ‘care’ about is death. You don’t care about what’s worse than death anywhere near as much as you care about death thus you are not able to care.
Look at your suicide laws. Look at your suicide system. Then you’ll know what monsters do if monsters try to care. Look at the suicide system and suicide laws and know that you’re too evil to be able to care. That’s why your suicide laws and suicide system have no humane protections of which assisted suicide is but one. Your suicide laws have no protections against unbearable suffering and unlimited suffering. It’s only possible in a civilisation of monsters and only in a civilisation of monsters would I be denied help to achieve my death.
Legalise assisted suicide for so many reasons but do it because it is the last and ultimate protection against unlimited suffering. And do so much more than what you’re doing now for suicidal individuals.
It is the legalisation of assisted suicide which most important to me but the other aspects I’ve written about of a humane suicide system, suicide laws and civilisation are extremely important for other suicidal individuals. I write and think about it all by applying first principles in this blog
It all comes from the same place but these principles I’m applying are firmly antipsychiatry in their basis. They’re based on truth. They may seem to be blatantly obvious truths but the significance of these truths is not recognised by the justice system or the government. From these truths I’m painting a picture of a strategic vision I believe in. (- What have you got?)
I’m also writing to bring my own death closer. I know you can’t stand to see me free to end my suffering – because you can’t care – but that’s what I’m fighting for. Every single day is proof of why suicide is good and of how evil you are at your core.
That I have to fight for my death is another proof of your evil nature. After all I’ve suffered and all the more I’ve suffered when I’m suicidal I still have to fight for my death because all you have is evil at your core. It is unforgivable.
I would never suffer so much in a humane civilisation not least because assisted suicide would never be a crime. But this is a civilisation of monsters and all you do well is keep on making me want to die and keep me feeling suicidal.
My suffering is never too much for you to bear and no matter how long I’ve wanted to die it is never too much for you to bear. Enough is never enough for you when it comes to my suffering. Ask yourselves this: why would I want to live amongst monsters like you?
Legalise assisted suicide if for anyone for me for gods sake.
Anyway….I’ve written a few posts. Some of them are good and some of them aren’t but they’re all good to me.
(Let me quickly mention my use of the word “you” because I use it a lot but with different meanings. Sometimes it’s the reader I’m addressing. Sometimes it’s the government and the justice system. Sometimes it’s about the human race. What I’ve written doesn’t specify who is the subject I’m addressing when I say “you”.)
I’ll start with the two posts I’ve worked on the most. I’ll start with post 2 because post 1 is full of feeling and it’s quite long for a blog post. Post 1 is the most important one and the one I highlighted near the beginning of this page.
Post 2 – I wrote post 1 then realised that the tone I’ve taken could get in the way of the message. Much as I believe my suffering is important it could get in the way of you reading it. I’m extremely aware how easily my feelings are dismissed so I wrote post 2. It’s shorter and has much less feeling in it than post 1.
Post 1 – I’ve spent a lot of time on this and I cover some important concepts. But it’s full of my anger and my feelings of despising you. This might get in the way of the message. Already I’ve found that my suffering is too easily dismissed by you as has my plea for some humanity from humanity. This post is all about knowing pain and how this knowledge should inform suicide policy and practice. Like I said I have spent a lot of effort on this post in particular but if you can’t stand how I feel then I think you won’t like it.
It’s a shame I have to hold back my feelings in an attempt to be professional. Unfortunately I’m not very good at being professional. I’m sure you can see this from the title I’ve chosen for this blog.
Other posts
There’s a lot more on this blog. Let me highlight ones I hope you read.
Posts 3 and 4 (below) are about unlimited suffering and the protections against unlimited suffering in a humane society and civilisation. The suicide laws should be producing a defence against unlimited suffering. Assisted suicide is an essential part of this defence but there must be so much more.
I speak as a victim of living in an inhumane civilisation which has thoroughly failed to provide me a sufficient limit to my suffering. The current suicide laws don’t give a damn about my suffering so I have to fight for my death. In this respect I’ve been totally failed by the government and the justice system.
Post 3 – this is a short and simple piece. Throughout writing this blog I’ve often failed to hold back on how I feel so be prepared for thoughts and feelings in this post.
Post 4 – this piece talks about the issues I’ve mentioned in post 1 but I’ve better held back my bitterness
The next posts I want to highlight are about the meaning of “vulnerable” and the cruelty of the medicalised suicide system. Like the public the government and the justice system believe in ‘doctors know best’ but it’s not true when it comes to expertise in suicide.
In particular it’s the meaning of vulnerable which is corrupted by the medicalisation of the suicide system and the mental health system which is a terrible thing which justifies so much cruelty in the name of care. This hideous misappropriation of the meaning of care which justifies unjust deprivation of liberty is the sole product of the specious paradigm at the foundation of the institution of psychiatry.
(If only the human race were able to care. If only the human race were able to care about the truth. Then the institution of psychiatry would never exist and neither would the medico-legal framework of laws. Instead there’d be a humane suicide system, suicide laws and civilisation. And then I’d probably have never needed to die let alone have to fight for my death.)
Post 5 – this post has some of the feeling I put into what I write but might be considered unprofessional. This piece is about the cruelty in the suicide system and the specious reasoning behind the misappropriation of the meaning of care and the use of the term “vulnerable” to justify unjust deprivation of liberty.
Post 6 – here I use some of my personal experiences to ask important questions. This post is about the flexibility of the meaning of vulnerable as well as the importance of truth.
Post 7 – I’ll include this because it’s very short but it addresses the problem the Ministry of Justice mentioned as the reason why the government has decided to continue to keep assisted suicide illegal and deny me my death
Post 8 – I think this is important. It covers a lot of issues. It’s about liberty and safeguards I believe in. At the moment I don’t believe in pure freedom to die is possible but this is the ultimate goal. I firmly believe that any safeguards against suicide must be minimal because forcing anyone to live is an act of bare and blatant cruelty.
Even more posts
At this point I’d like to mention that I’ve spent the last three months working on this blog. I hope this alone is enough for you to feel my will to die. It’s been a grim three months and it’s horrible to be alive.
Perhaps if you can get through reading all of post 1 then my job is done? (I work for a dying all because you’re too evil to be able to care.) But there’s so much more I’ve written in this blog which is relevant. Below are a selection of the other posts I’ve written.
The problem is that I know so much about what can be done to a suicidal individual from personal experience so I know so much about what should never be done to a suicidal individual. Like your cruelty isn’t enough already I have to fight for my death.
The criminalisation of assisted suicide is an act of bare and blatant cruelty which has more in common with a crime than someone helping me die. It’s all the more terrible because it’s done in the name of care.
Post 9 – here I talk about the value of the truth as well as knowing that forcing someone to live is an act of cruelty not care.
Post 10 – I believe this post is particularly important for the justice system to recognise the truth about suicide and assisted suicide. Again I’m reiterating the point about the nature and severity of feeling suicidal.
Post 11 – this is about the shift in thinking which is so desperately needed and, I believe, is a paradigm shift towards genuine compassion.
Post 12 – I talk about my personal experiences as well as my feelings in this post which is about a measure of your humanness. I’ve asked the Prime Minister’s office the question “how long is too long?” but got no response.
Post 13 – another post which is important. It’s all about how you care or not. There’s more of my feelings but there’s also an important question for the justice system which is “what happens to someone you hate” which I believe is relevant to punishment.
Post 14 – this post is about inspiration and a hope which may never be fulfilled but if it is then it will change human civilisation for the better. In my usual style this is the sort of message I’d end on for this blog. But I have chosen something else.
Post 15 – this reiterates a key message but with my feelings in it
Post 16 – here I’m repeating things I’ve said in the posts above but in this post there’s some points made about the value of suicide. It’s vital for you to recognise the value of suicide for so reasons. Your suicide system and suicide laws are not designed by people who understand pain or the value of suicide. I believe this lack of understanding contributes to so much of the cruelty you can do to a suicidal individual and would never be possible if you could care.
Post 17 – I think this is an important post. You decide.
Post 18 – this is another important post. It’s about the importance and potential of conditioning and education to give people the skills and capacity to make the best decision about their death for themselves. It is, I believe, the most important safeguard and it is what’s necessary to achieve the ultimate objective which is pure personal freedom when it comes to one’s death. Obviously this is a long way away but it’s important to start now. I also reinforce the point about vulnerability.
As you can see I’ve thought a lot about this issue of suicide and assisted suicide. As well as all I’ve written there’s so much I’ve suffered over the last three months which is too much for me.
I hope this enough for me to get my reward. The reward for this work is my death.
You don’t need to know why I need to die. It should be sufficient for you to know that I have thought long and hard. If not then let me finish with this
I know what you can do to a suicidal individual. I know what you can’t do for a suicidal individual. So why would I want to live amongst monsters like you?
It might mean nothing to you but it means the world to me. I fail and I fail and I fail so I’m still suffering. And you still don’t care about what matters to me. My death. The only protection I’ve ever had from your cruelty.
My response to the Ministry of doing injustice to suicidal individuals and calling it justice (aka the Ministry of Justice) 